hey ,
ever wonder a life where you get ashamed of yourself ?
well I'm in one :') ..
where you get insult , where you get a lot of fake friends , where people talk to you when they only need you , where you are the last person on earth that people care about , where sometimes you do not feel appreciated at all , where you always ask your self "why do I live in this world?"
HOW IT IS LIKE ?
I'm not a normal teenager , where boy hang out with boys , girls hang out with girls , boys be boys , girls be girls .. I'm not comfortable next to boys . why ? for all my life I've been living with a loving mother and 3 awesome sister . FATHER ? that is a little bit complicated to talk about , lets just say I'm not close to my father ..
FRIENDS?
I don't really have many of them , see I'm not "boyish" so most of my friends are girls , Facebook Friends ? see because I'm fat I do not have many friends see when you are handsome as fuck everyone want to be your friend .
HOW I DEAL WITH BORINGNESS ?
I have an alter ego (girl) just so sleep away my boringness , I wish , I really wish that god one day make you feel what i feel , especially you Mohammad Syahiran , Siti Atirah and Adham Daniel :) I really do .
!LETS GET SENSITIVE!
HOW IT IS LIKE ?
I'm not a normal teenager , where boy hang out with boys , girls hang out with girls , boys be boys , girls be girls .. I'm not comfortable next to boys . why ? for all my life I've been living with a loving mother and 3 awesome sister . FATHER ? that is a little bit complicated to talk about , lets just say I'm not close to my father ..
FRIENDS?
I don't really have many of them , see I'm not "boyish" so most of my friends are girls , Facebook Friends ? see because I'm fat I do not have many friends see when you are handsome as fuck everyone want to be your friend .
HOW I DEAL WITH BORINGNESS ?
I have an alter ego (girl) just so sleep away my boringness , I wish , I really wish that god one day make you feel what i feel , especially you Mohammad Syahiran , Siti Atirah and Adham Daniel :) I really do .
!LETS GET SENSITIVE!
( Nothing to do with the topic just a little bit about me )
see i don't choose to be like this , my religion ? CHRISTIAN BEFORE ISLAM NOW, why ? FAMILY PROBLEM and i don't choose to be in . at the age of 12 i convert then nobody teach me the right way to become a true muslim . so don't judge me . :) if you are muslim from born you don't feel what i feel okay ..
see i don't choose to be like this , my religion ? CHRISTIAN BEFORE ISLAM NOW, why ? FAMILY PROBLEM and i don't choose to be in . at the age of 12 i convert then nobody teach me the right way to become a true muslim . so don't judge me . :) if you are muslim from born you don't feel what i feel okay ..
"human only know how to judge .. :) you never know what is going on in someones life . the pain they carry . you can say this say that but I bet you , if you are in their shoes for one day you can't even walk a tiny step ."