pain of life ? I GUESS


expressing my feelings AGAIN .
hahaha one thing being the last child out of 4 is being lonely .
no one to talk to , no one to play with , all i have is my phone and computer .. 
WHO WANTS TO BE FRIEND WITH A FAT UN-FAMOUS BOY ? 
trust me ! IT HURTS .. 

I have this one "best friend" that is like my "ex-best friend" now .. like i don't know what happen between us suddenly we don't talk to each other .. OMFG ! i don't mind k , but the stupidest thing the did is being friends with people he hate .. like my "EX-BFF" name is "A" and he hates "B"
last year "A" told you not to be friends with "B" , like NEVER ! 
the this year "A" is friend with "B" ... like you shit then then next thing you do is eat back your shit -_- .... ewwww 


I was never a loner till my family move to Bintulu .. 
it is my forth year here and how does it feels to be alone for four damn years ? 
I really hope that I'm the only one in this world that feels it , WHY ? because it HURTS :'( 

i have this one friend that really understand me "KIMMY IMRAN" i mention him allot in this blog , yeah i know he is like the only person witch is my friend who understands me .. 

its not that i don't have friend here , but some people you call "real friends" are just far away from me .. like I'm jealous seeing a friends , like best friend who is always near to each other , like nina and wanie ... Nina,wanie and maisarah i miss you guys allot .. hahahha 

so i hope life will cool down , know what i mean ? like a few month after everything is better that what i feel now .. i want to be like , when i read this post back i can take a deep breath and say "THANKS GOD" .. get what i mean ? 

so this is the end for my update .. :) 

I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST , AND WISH ME LUCK IN LIFE <3